Application Process

My name is Katie.
I’m not on the varsity soccer team, I have yet to land the lead in the winter musical, and I haven’t logged any community service hours throughout all of high school. I probably look astonishingly similar to the bulk of your other applicants.

I have received above average grades in honors and AP classes and my SAT scores are at the minimum for your university. All things considered, I know for a fact that I probably don’t stand out. But last night, in the process of writing my application essay, I was visited by my former self.

Freshman Katie stands next to my bed, two feet shorter, seventy pounds heavier, wearing a sweatshirt in June, and her skin is three shades paler. She avoids signing up for any and every club, she avoids her three siblings, she even avoids herself. Her curtains are always drawn. Lying in her top drawer is a Swiss army knife that no one knows she uses on a regular basis; no one will ever find out. There is a stack of books in the corner of her room that is taller than she is, but she will never get around to reading them.

So I may not look incredibly impressive on paper, and I won’t be able to write you an extraordinary essay about the animal hospital that I work at on the weekends and what I’ve learned from my experiences there, but I have made a hell of a lot of progress during my four years. I have cut and cried, argued and fought, stayed up until 3am to finish homework and still woke up at 6am to get to school on time until I became the person I am today. I’ve learned why a bullet shot from a gun will hit the ground at the same time as an identical bullet dropped from the same height, but I’ve also learned that sometimes you’ll have to throw away your Swiss army knife for yourself because no one else will. I learned that being your own hero is your best and safest option. I learned that you can work your ass off and smile through every day and still have the lowest class rank out of all of your fellow honors and AP friends. I learned that no matter what the letters of recommendation say, nothing you will see on the other side of this is going to tell you who any of us are. We are all so much more than our GPAs. I am not an SAT score.

HELP ME!

Guess who’s looking at colleges? Me! And guess who is totally intimidated and scared and terrified and stressed out about it? You guessed it, me!

(Just to let you know, I decided I would post this Monday even though I posted yesterday because I had to get this out somehow)

Some colleges are starting to look like guessing games, they let in kids with a low SAT score and turn away kids with high SAT scores. That’s scary to me. I like to know what my chances are when applying to a college. That’s hard to tell because you know that something in those kids with the low SAT scores interested the college enough to let them in. So how do I interest colleges? Beats me.

I know that even if you’ve read all of my blogs which, let’s face it, you have enough of a life not to have done that. If you have, then I am so sorry and you must have a high tolerance for people. Anyway, I should tell you that I’m currently fifteen and a sophomore in high school. I didn’t say anything about this for two reasons. 1) It didn’t come up and I didn’t find it significant. 2) Nobody wants to read a blog written by a teenage girl that they assume will be about high school and relationships and bleh, because that’s not really what the blogosphere is about.

I have broken this attempt at keeping my age a secret only to turn to the people of the internet for help. By help, I don’t mean encouragement, I mean HELP. Tell me if you’ve been to college, and what you know about getting admitted into one. Throw out the names of some good ones. Literally any bit of information you can think of about colleges. Seriously every bit of advice helps and please don’t read this without commenting. You have to know more than I do. I’m seriously going crazy here. Even if you don’t think you know anything that can be of assistance, please send this blog to someone you think can be. I don’t usually ask people to share my blogs but this would be extremely beneficial to me. Save me some gray hairs here.

I should tell you that I am in all honors classes and have been since I’ve started high school (wow, I’m so worked up over this that the first time I wrote this, I typed ‘college’ instead of ‘high school.’ Good thing I proofread). I get honor roll grades (all A’s and B’s) unless you count midterms and finals in honor roll, because I get an occasional C in them. I wasn’t in any ‘clubs’ last year but this year I have joined chemistry club so I’m looking for colleges that have particularly good science programs (it would be cool if along with a great science program, they have decent arts programs. I really want to be a singer or actress, but you know this is the whole ‘career to fall back on’ thing). I’m also in chorus and concert chorus but I have a feeling that won’t help me much.

One last thing, before you comment (you better comment) is that I don’t care about distance from home AT ALL. Seriously I am looking at a college on the other side of the country from where I live literally, so don’t hold back. Please help me!